You are missed. 💓

Time teases.
Hours, days and months of longing; yet my heart skips a beat.
Time leaves us behind,
Lost in grief of the memories that you knit.
Pillowtalk,
Laying on our bed, all day long,
staring at our feet.
The fireflies of the dark know,
Moments we have missed.
Darkness prevails,
As the sun of my life is gone.
Though I made through somehow,
But still, I stare blankly at my phone.
Stupidly waiting for your calls, thinking our last moonlight kiss.
The fireflies of the dark know,
Moments we have missed.
You promised.
Promised to stay in my ups and downs,
And here you are, holding my hand, all smiles no frowns.
My tie is all messed up, no one to pull it to the top.
Like you used to smile, with a slight tilt of neck towards a side.
It's still within you, where my heart and soul reside,
I stand alone, with clenched fists, confronting season's first bliss.
The fireflies of the dark know,
Moments we have missed.
One night in Paris, the other in Venice and all our silly dreams,
I crave for you in the dark, harder it seems.
You, your warmth, your touch are what my arms search for then,
My hands clutch the pillow hard, and all I do is just stare at your wren,
You loved that wren, didn't you?
That little songbird by the door, the door that I never opened for you again.
I miss your voice,
I miss you waking me up with a kiss.
One day, they'll reach you and tell me what I have missed.
My Fireflies, Your Fireflies.
They saw our last moonlight kiss.

The Bookmark that smiled!

Loneliness is a penchant for me.

The dark soothes and caresses my soul.

Farther you are, worse it seems for me;

I tend towards the dark that promises warmth and keeps me whole.

I used to read, used to make my own realm.

Now, as the snow sticks to the ground,

Words seem peculiar and books I can’t whelm.

I try to relapse, reconstruct, repair and unbound.

Alas! Oblivion seems to have got hold, I can’t rebound.

Two by Two, sits by my bed.

It’s like Nicholas reminds me every morning,

Of this beauty that remains still unread.

Last Night, after you slept, I put on some music;

Picked up the book and decided to give it a go.

Craving for a cup of coffee, but frankly I could do without it although.

Randomly, as we do, I sprung it open from amid.

Appalled I was when a photograph fell, face down into my lap.

I hoisted it, gazed upon that beautiful smile, the pain it forbid.

Just then, the song changed and Ed sang Perfect along.

A coincidence, or reminding me of where we belong?

Time prevails, now you sleep away from my arms.

I lay awake, writing this poem, looking at your photograph,

The photograph smiles at me, assures me that it’s fine.

Yet, the dark prevails, joining forces with time,

And yet again,

Solace is mine.

  

Her regret.

The distant light flickers,
Aids her discern search of hope.
Left forlorn, she is left with wounds and blisters,
Lies were fine, betrayal is too much to cope.
She squirms out of pain,
But more distress is what she'll gain.
Many went down this path, never to return;
Harassed, broken and torn into a million parts.
But no, according to the authorities, it isn't a matter of concern.
A seven year old soul,
Thrown into a bottomless crevasse.
Who is to blame? Who shall be loathed for the loss?
All she wanted was to trust, trust a man to shadow her dad,
Who knew she will be the one to dread?
Courage and shame,
She and him.
I bet she resisted to her best, screamed and hit him back,
Courage she possessed, brave she was, but strength she lacked.
She didn't even know, what he intended to do,
A candy, and a promise of more;
And her innocent mind agreed to go.
The distant light flickers,
She's almost there, away from the pain,
Yet, she thinks about her mother and tries to make him stop,
She pleads, though he holds her firm, greed and lust atop.
Her mother could hear he scream,
even though far she was, virtually blind.
She knew her angel was in pain, she did call her Dad,
He was busy, he ignored her call,
That's the moment he'll dread after all.
But this isn't his fault, what could he've done?
Burned she was, when her uncle tore away her dress,
Betrayal and then followed distress,
What? Too painful to read?
 Yeah? Now think about the pain she felt in that stampede.
The distant light isn't distant no more,
She gave up just then, couldn't take no more.
Her soul is free now, she is happy to give up.
The only regret she has is the truth,
The truth that she won't be the last.
The candles seeking justice will burn away,
The voice of redemption isn't vast.
Faith is what she lost, maybe you ought to give it back,
Revise your ethics, uphold the justice, make it your knack.

 

Show me the stars, Nothing less!

The seaside bungalow was all lit up with colors. Savi had chosen this bungalow for the destination wedding though her parents still favored a typical Indian wedding in a local rented resort.

But Savi was not thrilled with the idea at all. Destination wedding is the least she could arrange for her little sister’s most important day. She remembers her wedding quite clearly. Her marriage ceremony wasn’t so much high rated. In fact, even her first cousin came to know about her wedding a month after the day. Now, the whole scene was brought alive with decorative lights and flowers contributed to immense fragrance with the delicacies.  

“Where is Amit?” Savi thought.

Amit and Savi’s wedding wasn’t a talk of the town like this one was. Of course, being a love marriage, both were totally contended that their parents had given their consent. They didn’t care if Sharma Ji or Arora Ji were invited or not. They were happy that they had a day to remember all their lives.

She moved towards the veranda and found Amit. He was standing with a trio of her relatives. She gestured him to come over. Amit, being the least demanded son-in-law didn’t even care of excusing himself from the people near him who were obviously not giving him any attention.

“Someone looks sizzling,” he smiled. Savi blushed. She had always loved Amit’s way of complimenting her.

“Shh! Dad was looking for you.”

“Yeah, we bumped. He asked me to keep a little distance from the groom’s family.” He shrugged.

“What? What the fuck! I am going to ask...”

Savi’s expressions were changed to fury, but Amit gently closed her mouth with his hand.

Then, he searched around for prying eyes. No one was looking.

‘Perfect.’ He thought.

 He pulled her in the closest room. Locking the door behind them, he pulled her into his arms.

“I don’t mind what your dad says, till we have these moments.”

Savi relaxed a bit. She had always loved being in his arms, against his sturdy chest to listen to the beautiful rhythm of his heart.

“But baby, I don’t like the way my family treats you. They should serve you, not discard you.”

She hugged him even tighter, while he moved his hands to and fro her backline to the dimple down her spine.

She flinched with ecstasy.

“You can serve me. I want you Savi.” He whispered as his teeth pulled her earlobes gently.

She moaned and held him tighter,

His hands made their way through her tee and rubbed her bare back.

She moaned louder. Her breathing increased, so did his heartbeat.

Suddenly she pulled him over and took his lips in hers.

He winced. God, He had always loved Savi’s dominance while they made love. She was too good when bad.

She pulled his jeans down and took his manhood in her hand, while her lips continued devouring his.

“Let’s be quick Savi, others maybe looking for us.”

Totally ignoring his words, she sat on her knees and took him in her mouth and started stroking him as slowly and sensually she could.

He moaned. She continued the assault for some time.

Then, he pulled her up and took her lips in his.

Still kissing her lips, he unbuttoned her blouse and peeled it off her. Then, he sat on a table and pulled her onto his lap with a jerk. She giggled.

He pulled her Sari apart and threw it on a chair nearby. In a jiffy, he took her bosoms in his hands and squeezed them hard. She moaned louder and louder as he continued fondling with her bare bosoms. And then, he took one of them in his lips and sucked hard onto it. Her nails bore deep into his back as his tongue licked the sensitive parts of her bosoms. Each time she bit one with his teeth, she let out a small scream of pain and pleasure.

Soon enough, one of his hands made its way between her legs. She parted her legs to let it in.

He pulled her inner wear down her legs. He parted her legs even more as his hand moved again between her legs. His fingers parted her skin, and she let out a moan.

“Ah! I love when you are so wet for me...” he whispered.

His finger moved deeper and she relaxed her legs to take it deeper into her as she moaned louder with ecstasy.

“Ah baby! I love your finger touching the inside of me. Kiss me below. Please suck me!”

Without wasting a single second, he jumped from the table and pushed her on it. He pushed his head between her legs and guided his tongue into her cores. She screamed with pleasure and pulled his head towards herself harder. His tongue bore deeper into her, adding to her natural wetness.

She decided that she couldn’t take it anymore.

“Baby, show me the starts! Make me yours.” She moaned as he bit her outer skin.

She pushed him to make him lie on the table and positioned herself on top of him. He took his manhood in her hands and guided him into herself. Both of them moaned with pleasure as he went deeper and deeper inside her. That feeling was of completeness. She loved when she was connected to her and she always wanted more of him at those moments.

She moved and jumped harder and swifter on him, taking her love deeper into her soul and letting her demons loose to absorb the warmth. She moaned louder each time she moved up and down, taking him into her, deeper and deeper.

He moved his hand between her legs and started rubbing her love spot as she jumped even more vigorously up and down on him.

“Ah! Yes baby! Make me cum!”

They were close, as proximate as they could be. Amit pulled her down and kissed her lips as she continued the assault steadily.

Just then, her whole body contracted and Amit felt her love hole squeezing his manhood slightly. This did it for both of them, as with a loud moan, both united their thick juices inside her, giving a new sense of completeness inside their bodies.

They both lay motionless, on the table, with her on top of him. They were breathless, all covered with sweat, breathing heavily as their heartbeats tried to slow down a bit.

Like always, he motioned himself to let her in his arms for a hug, and she fell into them, without uttering a word.

 “I am glad you came in my life Savi. Nothing else matters to me.” He kissed her forehead.

She didn’t say anything, just held tightly on him.

And then, they spent the whole wedding night exchanging mischievous smiles, waiting for their next night.

Ecdysis...

Resurrection; Incarnation,

Death must be a substitute of life.

Live, to make a difference, the emotion;

Die, to make an impression, strife.

Break free, don’t be owned,

Believe, trust yourself, and break the chains.

Don’t succumb to the pain, it’s unreal, just an illusion,

A sorcerer’s curtain to hide your real gains.

Run, faster till your soul breaks free,

It’s not your past, from whom you are running away.

Your future, the future you, is the one you need to heave,

So, break free, till you own the day.

Karma’s a bitch, by now you must have known;

 You can’t outrun your deeds, it won’t leave you alone.

Apathy, if ever your world starts crashing down,

Take a shelter, wait and pray, never frown.

Take all the time lost, all the days that did cost,

Cost your inner peace a moment of discomfort that was lost.

Break free; leave all the pain behind,

 Die once, to be born again, kill the demons of your mind.

Save your soul from the dark, preserve,

Dusk promises a new dawn.

Don’t stop trying; victory, you shall reserve,

Pain, for a new life you must pawn.

Break free, leave behind all your mistakes,

It’s a new you, don’t forget to raise the stakes,

Your word against yours, nothing else matters,

As the caravan advances, the traveller groans,

Pain and dismay, the destination is long lost.

Break free, embrace the new you, no matter what it will cost!

Catharises 👥

Motivation, Sophistication;
It's a big clever world out there mate.
When people connect, emotions are on a toll,
Of prejudice, love, care and hate.
Pull yourself up my dear, The Lord sees all.
Run, faster, and don't be afraid;
He is there to break your fall.
On a serious note, purgation is must;
The catharises of one's soul, he is known to be just.
Just like Frost said, Two roads shall diverge;
You must take the call, which one to take.
Sometimes the less travelled one is the better journey to make.
That's old school, even Danté did pretty good;
Apathy, disavowed and then you will brood.
He shows you the light, Luminous Maxima!
Open your heart and let it in,
Run, believe in yourself, that you will win.
There shall be times, when life shall pull you down;
'Karma' may hit you back, leaving you to frown.
Behold then, the path he will show;
He, your inner God, the purity of your soul.
None shall help you, put success in your bowl.
It's you, your own will power,
That shall catharise your soul. 😍

I shall hide, you will seek...

                                      

Darkness and Silence, its hard not to breathe,
Red fluid oozes through me with increased pace.
Stars hover up in all black,
Beautiful you seem, as the moonlight intensifies your face.
Oh! I can see you, there you are,
looking for me, frowning and cursing the dark.
Careful! Don't tumble over those jars.
Come on Bae, you aren't even close to the mark.
I ain't hiding, I'm near you m'love.
It seems you aren't ready yet to discover,
Discover the epitome of my love.
Shh! The neighbours will wake up from their covers.
It isn't so hard, you gotta listen to your heart.
Trust your love, and then none can pull us apart.
Why are you scared? Wipe your tears,
Is it 'coz I ain't there?
No more tears, I'm here, all yours my dear.
When you are hurt, I shall wipe your tears.
I shall make you smile, but still you got a lot to bear.
Bae, you have to make it; find me, thats all.
And then you decide every weekend, mall or ball.
It won't prove futile, its worth it of course,
Better than to stop all of sudden, sit and remorse.
Love, it will keep you up all night,
Trust, it shall take all your might.
When both of these grow, I'll be yours forever,
Then, I won't let you cry ever.
One step ahead, you should seek.
'Coz I shall hide and you will seek.

Au Revoir

Moments of vengeance, it's a whole new world,
Spent nights in a corner, shrunken and curled.
Days and nights alike, never seem to end,
Life's a whore, when there's nothing to defend.
All came down, came down faster than downpour,
Ego and turbulence, spoiled our score,
I could've changed my mind, you know?
But you didn't hear a thing, you seemed to have made a vow;
A vow to remain in a square, not looking beyond,
It's strange, absurd that something so stupid broke our bond,
You were all I ever wanted, you were my lucky charm,
But of course, certain infinites cause more harm,
Bae, my heart isn't broken, it's still with you,
I guess, it's more complex than 'Theta/Mu'.
Life, nothing's left with me to care about now,
My heart and mind contradict, both fight over 'how?'
We can start it all over again, you know?
Let's get together Bae, live and put up a good show,
And if you, you want this too,
Spare the trouble, I'll help you fill in the grooves,
Or is it just my perception? Am I thinking too much?
No, there isn't a thing as such,
Don't leave now, the end is far and away,
I want you by my side, if you may?
Let's say goodbye to people of this sphere,
One promise,
One bond,
One touch,
Me and you,
And no one will hear...shhh..
No one will hear. 😊

Dreaming Out Loud!

I know, I know, I gotta keep together stuff;
I know, I know, maybe I have to get rough.
Stop and stare a bit, who knows what's enough;
Apathy, isn't the thing that I wrap around like a muff.
When wolves come out at nights, I call for them,
Life's been a sad story for me, not the one with an End.
Right now, I know what's good for me, what's bad,
Oh yeah, it's not a cage for me, and I won't ever bend.
I see it from far, like you do the stars,
It's clear enough, even if I walk through the dark.
People believe in me, they believe in my cash and cars,
I wonder sometimes, is it called 'making a mark'?
Native to this place, it's my creed.
Alive I feel, walking in wind and storms.
Raindrops aren't just water, it's a message indeed,
The heavens, these pearl drops are from.
It's a long way down, I need a temporary fix.
One way or another, I gotta be strong,
I need one thing, feelings I need to mix,
Is it so wrong, why is it so wrong?
In dreaming out loud and to,
Hear it from the sky..

The Unspoken Villain 😈😈

Tiny water droplets ran down the icy cold window pane, as he stared through the same towards some entity in the vast unknown.
She had tried a lot to convince him. But it was far worse than something that could be explained. Exhausted, by continuous weeping and sobbing, she lay on the floor, tugging on his pair of jeans. Her voice was as sore as it could be, and her hands had given up pleading him.
But he was the same, as adamant and silent as he was since the disaster started. She was still tugging by him, trying to convince him that it wasn't her fault. Secretly he knew it wasn't her fault. But he wasn't in a condition to accept that fact. He was broken, so was she. He was hurt deep to the core of his heart; the heart that belonged to her, the heart that she took care of as if it was her most beloved possession of all.
She was his Angel. The sole support he had in his uphill journey towards success. He was her knight in shining armour. They were perfect example of a lovestruck couple.
But now, everything seemed to have taken a freaky turn and the magical couple seemed to be broken apart by some sort of black magic.
"Enough!" He suddenly spoke out.
She looked at him, surprised, unsure of what he meant.
"Baby please let's stop this freaky game. I can't see you like this anymore." He spoke almost in tears.
She jumped up, magically regaining her lost strength.
"Baby...Shhh...why are you crying? It was just a game!" She kissed him, and then again and again.
"You said you wanted to know how it feels when couples fight. But it was one hell of a torture to me." He said as he took her in his arms.
She felt as if whole world was right at her feet at that moment. It was one of the most comfy an most cozy hugs that they ever shared. Love flourished with the wind.
"Baby, if you ever come across such stupid idea again, I will..." He spoke as they lay on the couch, with her head on his chest. She caught him mid sentence and took his lips into her soft custody. A quick peck on their lips and everything seemed fine.
The couple who never fought. ☻
 Couple that never fought? I don't know. I haven't seen one yet. But I know one thing for sure. Every love story doesn't need a organic villain. Sometimes, actually most of the times a jerk named 'Misunderstanding' and a crook named 'Ego' are enough.
But you know what? When trust factor acts as a catalyst, love tends to proceed towards infinity. Right? 😊😊

Wedding Bells (A Poem)

End Of The Day

“Do you need a hand?”
It has been a reckless night for me. Got fired from my job because I didn't give in to my boss's sexual desires, had an encounter with my Ex, and now this bloody flat tire.
It's been raining since I left the office, agitated. I am soaked to bones, trying to figure out how to do and what to do.
I had never felt the need of learning to change a flat, always had a driver to do that, whenever needed.
I am really scared. It's raining buckets and there's no sign of any shop or house as far as I can see. No sign of life, as far as I can see. About 20 minutes have passed, and no car or vehicle has passed me yet.
It's a perfect nightmare for any girl.
“Do you need any help ma'am?”
He repeated his question, while I stared at him in disbelief. He stands in front of me, staring like a stranger without any readable expression of him that I can remember.
He was him. The guy who was once my reason to smile. The one who made my life beautiful and worthy enough to live. My first Love. No, he was more than that. And yet, after all, that happened between us; today, on this terrible night, of all the people in the world, he is here.
I stand up and walk backward steadily, with my eyes fixed on his face.
He went around and grabbed the jack from my trunk, from somewhere that I couldn't even imagine searching.
'Men know things.' I thought.
“So, How is your life?”
He spoke softly, in that lovely voice, pulling me out of my thoughts.
“Fine.” I lied.
“So it seems.” he chuckled.
“What?”
“Nothing..”
“Speak up.”
“You have always been a terrible liar.”
I remained silent. He was right. I can't lie, without showing it on my face. And he, always had expertise in finding my lies.
"How did you find me here?"
"I was stalking you.", he laughed.
I abruptly grew red.
"You were always like that."
“You don't know anything about me.” I blurted out angrily.
“I do,” he spoke softly.
“Oh really? What do you know?” I demanded.
“That is a deep corner of your heart, there is still a lot of love for me....”
His words hit my heart like a toxic spear. A hefty blow and venom started spreading in my body.
My mind started racing, trying to take in what he just said. Adrenaline, pheromones, and numerous hormones seem to concentrate my blood.
“It's not true. Bullshit.“ I lied, the same predictable way.
He opened his mouth to say something and then decided against it.
He finished changing the tire and confronted me. I tried to resist the temptation to look into his eyes. I failed.
“I know, I messed up. I was a fool. I won't lie to you. I accept that I was a jerk. I held you for every wrong in my life. But, the truth is, I have never stopped loving you. Day and night, I repent and think of ways to bring you back. My life is hell from the day you left me. And see, How fortune has favored us today. Destiny and life is giving us a second chance.”
Words seem to be stuck in my throat, and tears started oozing out from my eyes. I started sobbing bitterly.
“Please baby, no tears. I love you. I really do.” He said, taking my face in his hands.
“I don't love you.” I lied, making myself fall in his arms.
“I can prove this wrong.” He said softly, in my ear.
He started pulling me away from him. I started resisting. It was so much comforting and warm near him, in his arms. I felt this feeling after so long. I was craving for it. I was feeling complete again.
“See, I told you, I could prove you wrong.” he pulled me more closely.
“I have never felt happier when proved wrong.”
“I will love you, Always.”
“I know, I have always known.”